Published...finally!

It's a bit late actually. I got the news last month :)

Finally, for the first time, a publisher chose my story...it feels wonderful, if I can describe it as..as if I was a bird and this news became the wind beneath my wings which would keep me ..fly

The book is published all around Indonesia. So my name will travel..literally!

I started to think to be a journalist, well, it's actually one of my dreams too..but it's just maybe I havent tried hard enough because I know, if I keep focusing on it, I would be one!

I want to write profesionally and I have to find a way how to do it....I know that one day, I would stand in front of a bookstore with my books on the rack! Best Seller! :) Amien

Keep shining!

Movies, Life and Stuffs :)

It’s Saturday and I had the day off today till tomorrow. I went to the nearest Malls from where I live, then complained about the street and the motorbikes, then went to buy couple of movies, then complained again about the angkot or bemo fare being too expensive. Hmm I’ve been complaining a lot, moaning a lot, - isn’t there anything else to do?!

When I went to a bookstore I happened to find a book,a biography book of a disabled man, a man without arms and feet. He’s about the same age as me, it’s just I’m older few months. It was amazing just to read a few pages of his story. I will try to get more information about him from the internet. He could do all the things that normal people could or some normal people might couldn’t like playing guitar for example. I’m normal but I cant play guitar, he doesn’t have arms but he plays guitar. He said every single thing is a choice..to be happy or to be sad, to try or to give up..and I know he’s right!

The movies which I bought happen to be sad ones  one is about how dream can actually come at a heavy price but to be honest I didn’t really get the message of the movie, I mean having a dream and being ambitious are a two very different things. I think they mixed it up. The other one is a famous movie, My Sister’s Keepers, dang it..I couldn’t stop crying. Well, it’s about life and death. Well, it’s good to watch that kind of movie sometimes, it makes us realize how important life is, how important the people we love are, how important to do what you like while you can, to go wherever you want while you have the chance, - you get the point.

Sensitive??

It's rainy season now here in Bali ; rain falls day and night, - everyday!

It kinda affects my mood :)

Today, I went out around afternoon, on my way to buy new movies, I saw old man, well not pretty old but old. He was selling a children kind of toys, - traditional ones, I think he made them himself. I feel pity for him, for being there..under the rain, selling toys which I personally think, modern children wouldn't like of. Other people just passed by but I looked twice or three times (or more or worse, - stared at him!) for some reasons I wanted to cry. Silly,really. He was a stranger. I hate myself sometimes. Am I over sensitive? I cried when I watched UP the cartoon movie for crying out loud!

But most of all, why I hate myself the most is because..I could not do anything or don't do anything when I see things like that. I don't kinda like it when other people see me help other people..like I don;t know...give money to the homeless or something..it's like I am doing that because I want people to think I am a kind person. Sometimes that feeling is killing me..literally!

I must do something to control my mood and emotion before it gets out of hand , - which kind of happened already :)

Over sensitive huh?!

Happy New Year 2012..

Happy New Year everyone!

How's your New Year? Did you go to any party?

Well, whatever that is, - hope we all gonna have a better year this year!

I didn't go anywhere yesterday, It was my first New Year in Bali after several years away. Bali has changed a lot..lots of bangs, lots of cars, looooots of motorbikes, in short, - all the things that made me stay at home yesterday. Bought some new movies, some chips and some cokes, watched fireworks from my window and did countdown myself. Well, I was okay with that though.

I really do hope that this year will bring abundance of positive energy, peace, joy, and love for all of us. My New Year resolutions??? well, I actually never made one, I normally go with the flow. If it's bad, - stop doing it but if it's good, - keep doing it, now, that's what I called resolutions lol

Times flies so fast, way too fast..next year I'll complete my 1 year in Bali, 365 days gone, just like that. Wow. I miss Dubai. It would be a lie if I say I don't.

Keep shining!

Intuition...

Intuition is actually one of  my favourite words! I just love the meaning of it.

I am currently in Heaven, - literally. I took 3 days off as compensation to my annual leave. I would love to go to Dubai and spend few days there however, at the moment I need to save more as to gain more. I decided to take short courses, what I have in mind are like writing, journalism, photography courses etc but since it is quite hard to find such courses in Bali, I am going to take music course or driving course or even cooking/baking course instead. I wanna do something...anything that would make me active and sort LOL so today I went out to visit a Music Course and got all the information I needed . Guess what, I plan to take on Guitar lesson, I've always loved guitar actually , - I mean you can create song with the simple melody, I've always wanted to play one..just one..single music instrument!

Oh, one good story today and that is still related to the subject. I took a long walk to McDonald's cos I was in the mood of Ice Cream and this book store in Matahari Mall just the opposite of McDonald's kept popping up in my head so I decided to follow it and voila...I met an old friend, my high school friend. We were classmates! that's why it kept popping up in my head :) it felt so good to follow my intuition

Sunny and Rainy Sunday ..phew

Rainy season is coming. I know I know..I am not complaining but it has been raining since last night ..again I am not complaining..it's sunny now!!

Nature is wonderful and amazing and full of mystery. Yeah I'm still curious about the thunder and lightning particularly..how do they happen? I mean what they are? and why do they only show up when it rains. Well, I can google it but that just does not satisfy my curiosity. I mean, yes, I am talking about the higher power.

I am also trying to get my stories done, huaaaa I just could not. I should finish it I know..I will I will...at least one story.Actually it's nearly finished :)

I need some push please!!!

Sick :(

I'm sick at the moment. I have been in and out of the office for this couple of days, been going home late, been having dinner late, - well the sum of it all will be my condition right now

I hate taking vitamins despite I used to do that and despite the fact that I force anybody I care to take one. I am even surprised at how stubborn I am! I havent jogged for ages; I used to have a healthy life in Dubai.

Anyway, I will take rest and surely I will get better. I have many stories to tell however; I'm too tired to type :P